WHAT JOB HUNTING HAS TAUGHT ME
Apparently being introspective has become a trademark of mine, and why should it not be? Everyone goes through hardships in one way or another and it is fine to be able to admit it. In a way, job search helped me understand this need of mine to stop for a minute and be mindful of my decision and understanding of the person I currently am and the person I want to become.
Thought, job search has not been quite a successful experience for me, I finally understood that my career path does not define the person I want to become. In a way not being able to define my work career allowed me to understand where my self esteem issues came from and how to deal with my emotions in a more comprehensive way.
Job search pushed me to go back to a psychologist and speak about the vision I have of myself and the world around me, and acknowledge that if something is not meant to be mine, it won’t be and I should not be upset, because they missed out on this great individual with incomparable work ethic and passion for doing things in the best way possible. Interviews are ultimately a chat with someone, and thought a chat does not show all the capabilities of a person.
Looking at someone in the eyes and seeing the passion behind the shyness is a skill that not everyone has and that’s why I understood that, really, I’m not missing out on a role if the person interviewing me is not a match for my personality.
Jess Glynne expressed my feelings so perfectly in her song Thursday:
I won't wear makeup on Thursday I'm sick of covering up I'm tired of feeling so broken I'm tired of falling in love Sometimes I'm shy and I'm anxious Sometimes I'm down on my knees Sometimes I try to embrace all my insecurities So I won't wear makeup on Thursday 'Cause who I am is enough
And there are many things that I could change so slightly But why would I succumb to something so unlike me? I was always taught to just be myself Don't change for anyone
Now, I do not want to push anyone to go to a psychologist but I’d like for you to not be shy and spell out the things that do not make you the threat you are. Be able to be more assertive, listen to others and tell them what makes you feel like you are not good enough and find a way to fulfil your potential.
If you need I’m here to talk.
Take care of you babe.